Getting Used to Things
June 24
Monday, June 21st
This weekend was fun. Those of you involved in it will already know what happened, and those of you not, probably aren’t that interested. We got to see John and he and I stayed up ’til 2 a.m. playing Grand Theft Auto: Vice City. It’s so much more fun when you have a tank. He also showed us a couple of new anime shows from Japan. Well, Ghost in the Shell: Stand Alone Complex isn’t really new, but Bakuretsu Tenshi is, at least for us. I rented Tony Hawk’s Underground as well, but I haven’t gotten to play it much. It’s pretty fun and it definitely beats the older ones.
Thursday, June 24th
I started writing this post on Monday while I was finishing up stuff at work. Well, when I last woke up, it was Wednesday, the 23rd of June. Yes, that’s right; it’s deadline again. It’s currently around 4 a.m. and I’m sitting here waiting on files to print to PostScript documents so I can drop them into Adobe’s Acrobat Distiller. Then I have to check each of the PDFs to make sure everything is there, then I stuff all the files into a couple of .sit files and FTP them all down to Dallas, TX to the printer. I know I’ve talked about this before, so I won’t go into any more detail.
Elaine is currently asleep on the couch in a co-worker’s office. I’m sitting here alone listening to From Autumn To Ashes and trying to stay awake. I’m also trying to remember all that I was going to say about getting used to things in my life. I remember some of it, but there’s more now than there was; and less in a few places.
The good sides of it are that I’m getting more and more used to how stuff that I use works. I’m learning all the little functions of Textpattern so I don’t have to click the help buttons or go to the forum everytime I have a question. I’m also getting more and more used to my computer at home. I’m beginning to get back into the power user mode I was in on Windows. Of course, I’m no where near the level of efficiency I was at on Windows or even on a Mac. Well, maybe compared to a Mac; depends on the model, I guess. But I no longer blink or think twice about entering the terminal and issuing commands. I’m starting to take advantage of having scriptable programs and interaces. It’s getting to be more about the use and less about the method. This is good, I think.
The bad side doesn’t really even exist yet. I’m just worried that it will. I have this horrible, nagging feeling that somewhere along the way, Elaine and I are going to get used to this “get ahead; make more money” drive that we have to be in at this point just to survive and we’ll spend the rest of our lives trying to keep up with…_something_. I’m also afraid that if that happens, we’ll stop living our lives for the pleasure of being alive and being with each other and just live for what we can buy or the trips we can take. I never want to find myself enslaved, especially not to money.
I’m not that concerned about this, I suppose. I mean, I don’t lose any sleep over it. Some days are just worse than others and lately there have been a lot of worse days. I think I’m just getting old.